Well there's good and bad. K and T haven't returned, yay for that. Things seem to be a bit better now, though Mikes dad a few days back woke up and started yelling at us. About his stupid dog. Ugh I wish that dog would just get lost or something. She's stupid, refuses to learn, and isn't trained worth shit. I try to be nice to the stupid thing and it tries to jump in my lap or push it's paws against my belly. which is a BIG NO NO! I tell her NO and STOP and she keeps on doing it.
want to fucking kick that dog sometimes. and she wont stop harrasing my fucking cat. earlier CK was behaving when the dog comes running up to her, chases her into the kitchen then starts growling and barking at her while trying to paw the cat. I wanted to kick that dog in the head right then and there.
Anyways when he was yelling at us he was saying if we didn't like it we could just move out. and well... I've been kinda thinking about getting out ever since. I don't want his dad to be around with the baby 24/7. something tells me he'll try to tell us how to raise the baby and what to do like he does with his stupid dog. As much as I would like to be able to save up money I don't really want to stay here in this pig style much longer. His dad never cleans up the dishes, never cleans up after himself. never even has the decency to rinse his plate off so the cockroaches don't swarm it.
I don't have anything to kill them with but I'm still trying to cut down on them being around. Giving them less reason to even be here. that's why I try not to eat in our room all that much anymore. I don't want there to be crumbs to attract the roaches. I want us to have our own place that isn't infested with roaches the second we move in. And then I want to make sure they don't ever have a reason to get into the house to begin with. I need to get a job so we can get the fuck out.
also it'll be easier for my parents to visit if we have our own place. I mean... at least when they come to visit, if we are still living here when the baby is born then they can spend time with us in the living room, and they wont have to go into some small cramped place with way to many people. I seriously doubt we are going to hear much from mikes mom. let along get anything for the baby. she never did shit for when we got married.
I'm so bored... and lonely... and with mikes half sister Dominique here she's always using both the computer and the TV so I can't play any of my games without kicking her off of my fucking stuff. I mean she's okay but I'm ready to have her leave now. I'd like to be able to use my own shit, it's fine with mikes dad. He doesn't use any of it for long and then ends up taking a nap on the couch. not a big deal.
I'm feeling a bit trapped again... I just want people to go away so I can just spend some time doing what ever BY MY SELF! It probably wouldn't become a fight if I asked to get on my xbox 360 and used my tv. but I don't really want to face it. not to mention I still wouldn't have any time to myself. I don't want to play Fable 2 there with everyone fucking watching me and making cometary. NOT APPRECIATED! GOD! can't they just leave me the fuck alone!
I'm tired of mikes dad "teasing me" or saying shit. I tired of him bumping me or harassing me. I wish I had some god damn friends... I just want to have some friend to chat with and spend time with. I tried to do that with Faith but it just didn't work out. We really don't have much in common. I just want to have a friend to hang out with, that isn't a douche. doesn't want to just talk about themselves. and is willing to fucking listen and just hang out. All Faith wants to do is things that require money. which I do not have in abundance.
And for some reason mike keeps snapping at me over the littlest things... and I just want to go home... I want to go back to Washington to my friends and my family... to weather that's not ridiculously hot. I want to get hugged... I never get hugged... not by mike... I have no friends to hug... and I'm so lonely... and bored... he plays his games and hangs out in the living room with his family and leaves me all alone in here.
God I need a friend.
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