Sick and tired of this fucking house

*deep sigh* Yah... I think that's the best bet for me to say. I'm sick and tired of this fucking house. Sick of this HOUSE sick of the freaking bugs that seem to magically find their way in here all the fucking time. I don't get HOW but they do. I guess all that cig and pot smoke helped keep the insects (aside from the roaches) out of the house. Because now there are tiny bugs everywhere, termites, and of course roaches.

No one's done shit about it. Mike and I tried to get something for the roaches but the store didn't have the item we wanted and as much as the situation has been much on my mind. it has not been on mikes mind at all. The trap under the sink is broken, and if I had any idea how to fix the stupid thing. I would do it! But I don't. And mikes dad keeps saying he'll fix it but he never does. We live in a crappy house. The tub doesn't drain, the ac constantly breaks the back porch smells horribly of vomit. That's because mike SAID he would take the garbage out two fucking weeks ago.

Mike and his dad do nothing to help around the house. No sorry when mike FEELS like getting off his lazy ass he'll do the dishes and if I'm lucky take out the trash because other wise that's ME. His dad did the dishes ONCE. Since Kenny and Tina have left he hasn't even once cleaned the house in any shape or form. He rarely takes his dog for a walk and even if he does it's only for like 5 minutes. So his stupid fucking dog shits and pee's all over the floor and harasses my cat.

He doesn't do shit for Mike and I either except how to take car of our cat or our kid. or fucking hit me or try and harass me. He doesn't do shit to punish or try to get his dog to behave. When the dog goes after my cat he yells at my cat for "edging the dog on" like hissing at a dog when it's trying to attack you is edging it the fuck on. Mike and I both know it's not CK's fault but he refuses to think other wise. I can't try and punish the dog because that's being MEAN and treating it like Kenny did. (Which is such total bull shit)

I'm tired of Dominique being here. SO FUCKING TIRED. I'd like to NOT have to sit by while someone who is a guest takes over all my shit. every day of every hour. It's like I have to ask politely to use shit I paid my own god damn money for. I'm tired of no one cleaning up around the house. No one sweeps, no one mops, no one cleans up messes they or their stupid dog cause, all they do is lay around the house and lord it over me that I don't have a job and they are going out of their way to be nice to me.

GAH! I'm having the guys freaking grandchild and I feel like I'm being treated like a roach. Not just a roach but one that is supposed to cook and clean and make everyone else happy while everyone else uses shit I worked for. I'm tired of this shit. I'm tired of Mikes loud dad, who wakes me up every time he comes home yelling his head off.

I want a place of my own... now. I don't want to share my home or my stuff with these stuck of A holes anymore. In fact I'm tired of Mike's shit too. He gives me a hard time any time I ask him to do anything. do the dishes or take out the trash. I've never seen him clean the bathroom. and yet he brags that he does SO MUCH around the house.

Why don't I just take my stuff... and get out of here. wait till I get paid, then get away from here. live in my car if I have to. Or maybe a homeless shelter until I can afford a down payment on a place.

I want a bed... not a mattress on the floor. I want a home of my own... I wish... I wish I could win a few thousand dollars. just a few... so I could move home... so I could get away from this shit hole. So I could have a home... a real home... to put my child in. Not one room to another to each place some one feels charitable enough to give us. I wish mike would stop throwing money around. I even wish he would just cancel the internet and cable. We can't catch up with the bill. I wish he would get off his lazy ass and sell the stupid Stylus already.

He hasn't done ANYTHING about getting his car legal so we don't have to remove it from the property. It doesn't even work, it's such bull shit.

GOD! PLEASE! I'm begging you get me out of here!!