about a week ago I got the bad news that my unemployment had run out. I received my last check... 90$ ... and was told that was the last of it. *sigh* I was pretty upset... but instead of crawling into bed and crying (I fought that temptation all day long) I started putting out app after app after app. It's been a few days now... and oddly out of no where I got two gals who responded to my Craigs list post who actually KEPT talking to me. Unlike a certain someone who just suddenly dropped off the face of the planet. 0.0?
First it was Stephanie, she just sent me an email out of the blue and I happened to notice it while I was looking at email responses to my job applications. sent emails back and forth then talked over the phone and then last night we hung out at a friend of hers. She cooked dinner, I made the mash potato's and we watched the movie "the Losers" it was very cool.
I couldn't get her to talk to me for a while all of a sudden and I worried that I had said or done something to offend. But the same day that Steph and I started talking again Sarah, who had sent me an email that day, called me on the phone. Turns out she's like 2ish miles away. Within walking distance. And so that day she and her two oldest met up with me as we went for a walk on the road.
Today she asked me over for dinner so I got a free meal. Twas nice. ^_^ yup yup. oh and yesterday I had a job interview. YAY! ^_^ *does a little dance* *yawn* so... yay for... good things... here's hoping that more good things will start to happen. Like a job... and friends... and NO MORE MONEY PROBLEMS! and stuff... and a safe baby delivery. ... Hm... I wonder... am I at week 24 now? or week 23? I don't remember. bah. I think I'm 6 months along now. WOOW! scary!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Thinking positive
So much harder than it sounds sometimes. When times are tough and things don't look like they are ever going to get better... it's so hard to think positive... they days will get tougher and you'll hope and hope for something only to have them dashed... or go from one bad situation to the next... Like what's been happening with Mike and I.
Or what happens to people stuck alone in the wilderness all alone with so little food and little knowledge on how to survive. I think I'm starting to learn that... to keep yourself positive, to not think negative thoughts... you need to keep your hope... and you need to stay positive.
Just... REFUSE to let go of your hope. KNOW that some how things will end up alright... I know the world is cruel and I know things often wont go the way you hope. But somehow someway just believe that things will work out. And some how it will.
I've got to look at the positive... something that's been so hard since we moved down here to Florida. I've lost so much of my hope with just one bad thing after the other happening... I've some times lost some of my hope in god... but I haven't lost my love of him... just ... question if god even cares anymore. I know he does but when things seem like it's only getting worse it's hard to believe in just that.
I have a husband that loves me, we have an income coming in, I have time and a chance to get a job. We have a roof over our heads. We have food, we have a baby on the way a mix joy yes but the good thing is I have a family that supports us even with the long distance. I have medicaid to pay for the medical bills, we have food, we have a working vehicle, and we have another one that we can sell. (since it isn't working and we both don't really wanna drive it)
things will work out. Some how... before our 5th wedding anniversary we will be living in Washington state, we might not have a house of our own but we will have a home, and jobs, and money coming in. We will some how have a renewal of vows so my family can attend that "wedding" of sorts. and things will work themselves out.
It'll happen. I just need to believe and keep hoping that it will. Of course if we happened to win the lottery (just a few grand, maybe 20 or 30 grand) that would go a long ways towards that hope. Heck we'd even have a home of our own and I could get my bachelors degree. *sigh* ahh dreams. *grins* okay I'll hope for that too. I'll hope for the several million but I'll be more than happy with the several grand. Even a few hundred would go a long ways.
So.. here's to trying to think positive. Hm? THINK POSITIVE!
Or what happens to people stuck alone in the wilderness all alone with so little food and little knowledge on how to survive. I think I'm starting to learn that... to keep yourself positive, to not think negative thoughts... you need to keep your hope... and you need to stay positive.
Just... REFUSE to let go of your hope. KNOW that some how things will end up alright... I know the world is cruel and I know things often wont go the way you hope. But somehow someway just believe that things will work out. And some how it will.
I've got to look at the positive... something that's been so hard since we moved down here to Florida. I've lost so much of my hope with just one bad thing after the other happening... I've some times lost some of my hope in god... but I haven't lost my love of him... just ... question if god even cares anymore. I know he does but when things seem like it's only getting worse it's hard to believe in just that.
I have a husband that loves me, we have an income coming in, I have time and a chance to get a job. We have a roof over our heads. We have food, we have a baby on the way a mix joy yes but the good thing is I have a family that supports us even with the long distance. I have medicaid to pay for the medical bills, we have food, we have a working vehicle, and we have another one that we can sell. (since it isn't working and we both don't really wanna drive it)
things will work out. Some how... before our 5th wedding anniversary we will be living in Washington state, we might not have a house of our own but we will have a home, and jobs, and money coming in. We will some how have a renewal of vows so my family can attend that "wedding" of sorts. and things will work themselves out.
It'll happen. I just need to believe and keep hoping that it will. Of course if we happened to win the lottery (just a few grand, maybe 20 or 30 grand) that would go a long ways towards that hope. Heck we'd even have a home of our own and I could get my bachelors degree. *sigh* ahh dreams. *grins* okay I'll hope for that too. I'll hope for the several million but I'll be more than happy with the several grand. Even a few hundred would go a long ways.
So.. here's to trying to think positive. Hm? THINK POSITIVE!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)