Thinking positive

So much harder than it sounds sometimes. When times are tough and things don't look like they are ever going to get better... it's so hard to think positive... they days will get tougher and you'll hope and hope for something only to have them dashed... or go from one bad situation to the next... Like what's been happening with Mike and I.

Or what happens to people stuck alone in the wilderness all alone with so little food and little knowledge on how to survive. I think I'm starting to learn that... to keep yourself positive, to not think negative thoughts... you need to keep your hope... and you need to stay positive.

Just... REFUSE to let go of your hope. KNOW that some how things will end up alright... I know the world is cruel and I know things often wont go the way you hope. But somehow someway just believe that things will work out. And some how it will.

I've got to look at the positive... something that's been so hard since we moved down here to Florida. I've lost so much of my hope with just one bad thing after the other happening... I've some times lost some of my hope in god... but I haven't lost my love of him... just ... question if god even cares anymore. I know he does but when things seem like it's only getting worse it's hard to believe in just that.

I have a husband that loves me, we have an income coming in, I have time and a chance to get a job. We have a roof over our heads. We have food, we have a baby on the way a mix joy yes but the good thing is I have a family that supports us even with the long distance. I have medicaid to pay for the medical bills, we have food, we have a working vehicle, and we have another one that we can sell. (since it isn't working and we both don't really wanna drive it)

things will work out. Some how... before our 5th wedding anniversary we will be living in Washington state, we might not have a house of our own but we will have a home, and jobs, and money coming in. We will some how have a renewal of vows so my family can attend that "wedding" of sorts. and things will work themselves out.

It'll happen. I just need to believe and keep hoping that it will. Of course if we happened to win the lottery (just a few grand, maybe 20 or 30 grand) that would go a long ways towards that hope. Heck we'd even have a home of our own and I could get my bachelors degree. *sigh* ahh dreams. *grins* okay I'll hope for that too. I'll hope for the several million but I'll be more than happy with the several grand. Even a few hundred would go a long ways.

So.. here's to trying to think positive. Hm? THINK POSITIVE!