It could be good or bad that things look like they are starting to look up. My hopes are certainly up though, the thought of being able to move out for one, hoping that we get Medicaid and food stamps is another big hope. because without it I don't have any idea how I'm going to be able to have the baby... Big medical bills... and... a baby on the way... she/he is already almost 3 months along now... okay now I'm getting teary eyed worrying about the baby and how we'll be okay if things don't go through...
I'm trying to look towards the good.. hoping that we get medicaid that we get the food stamps... and I'm hoping and praying that we'll be able to get the trailer. Both of us are more than ready to get out, away from the room mates who are always smoking cigs and pot and I don't want that anywhere near my baby. the cig smoke is dangerous for her health and the pot smoke... they don't know yet so I'd rather be safe than sorry.
Just the thought of not getting the trailer or anywhere else to move too. Being stuck here with the baby getting hurt more and more by the Douche bags that live here. Being stuck by myself in this tiny room while I give birth and having the baby die because there's nothing I can do... heck I might bleed to death too... not a good thought... I'm more worried about the baby dieing though...
alright... one the bright side. Things DO look up. I've been told it's almost an instant YES to at least medicaid if you are pregnant. I think about the same thing for food stamps. and with both of those if we move into the trailer it'll be even easier for us to pay rent. With 200 to 300$ saved thanks to food stamps then we can put that aside into savings for moving back home. or for emergencies. the place would be 675$ after utilities we could pay half to the park owners and the other half to the owner of the trailer some time within the month. Making it MUCH easier for us to afford the place. And everyone tells us the park owner is willing to work with people to pay off the down payment over time instead of all right away. Another great thing.
Also if we decide to fill one of the bedrooms with a room mate. Hopefully some one who's pretty quiet and keeps to themselves for the most part. But pays like... 200 or 300$ a month. well we would EASILY be able to afford rent with a room mate and food stamps. yah?
I still think it would pretty cool if we could move out around the same time as Alicia. Hm? then I guess Tina and Kenny would have to shove most of their stuff into their room, I suppose the rest would go in here. doesn't matter to me though since I wouldn't be living here anymore. YAY! I'd been dreaming a little last night about what it would be like to own the place. Fixing up some of the stuff we wanted to fix up. Like putting up the roof over the deck and then putting up screening all around with two screen doors. Mike and I both think it'd be awesome if we could let CK out there sometimes. She'd be outside but at the same time... not. ^^ coolies
if we really wanted we could lock the screen doors and leave our door open so lots of cool air comes in from outside... like during the winter times or later at night. when we don't want the AC to be working too hard. yah? Or when friends come over they can stand out there on the deck, we could game there and stuff. it'd be pretty cool.
So here's praying, crossing my fingers and hoping that things go through. We've done all that we can so far. Now we just have to wait and see what happens. Trust in god to make things work out.
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